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Not-So-Stupid Questions: How To Feel In Your Body

Questions to consider:

Do you feel your body?

Do you feel in your body?

What is your body feeling?

What are the sensations in your body?


I have a hard time feeling present in my body.

I had divorced my body in preference of the defenses that my brain offered.

I divorced my body because of shame.

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Hot & Bothered: Five Ways to Revive After Burnout

Last week I stepped out of my house and it was 114 degrees Fahrenheit. Getting in my car, I instantly felt the heat zap my energy. My skin was dry, the air was hot, and everything seemed to slow down to snail pace. A sizzling, fried up snail that is. 

Roasting in the intractable heat for five days now reminds me a lot of the spell I just came through. I was burnt out and a hot, fiery mess.

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Real Talk: Depression, Autoimmune Disease, and Infection

It’s no mystery that individuals with chronic diseases are at higher risk for depression. Who’s mood doesn’t drop when confined to a bed or coughing up a lung?

Battling my autoimmune condition is also battling my mood. My mood is intrinsically (and maybe biologically) linked to the flares of my Rheumatoid Arthritis. I once read a meme that said something like, half of the time I’m trying to convince others of my autoimmune condition and the other half of the time I’m pretending like it doesn’t exist. It’s like this: on one hand, people tend to think I look young and healthy, like I don’t have serious health problems, when in fact I do. On the other hand, I’m trying to look (and feel!) young and healthy, like I don’t have serious health problems, even though I do.

Today I feel the tension and frustration acutely.

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A Year Of Clarity - A Year Without Alcohol

My intention for 2017 was ADVENTURE. 

And adventurous it was.

I decided to follow my gut. To listen to my needs, my dreams, my wisdom. To go places I’ve never gone, learn things I’ve never learned, and achieve things I’ve never achieved! I did all of this over the past year and I’ve never felt more alive.

My adventure in 2017 was full of inspiration, roundedness, and risk all at the same time!

Unexpectedly it’s also brought incredible clarity.

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A Woman's Place - Wherever She Damn Well Chooses

A woman’s place should be wherever she damn well chooses. And wherever that place is, I hope she feels strong and healthy. 

I speak to women and serve women and care about the health of women because too often society has been taught not to.

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Know Your Rules So You Can Break Them

I’m a foodie. And we landed in New York City for a week.

New York seems to have a surplus of fresh foods - and a surplus of foods to indulge in.

Life is about balance. I’ve found the healthier I eat (healthy meaning fueling my body well, knowing what it does/does not tolerate) the better I feel. And I wanted to feel great, with lots of energy to explore the city!

I’ve learned to make all my own food rules so I can also know exactly when to break them.

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How I Went From Surviving to Thriving

Sometimes listening to our bodies is complex. I was battling whole-body inflammation while also starting multiple medications. Some medications provided immediate relief. Others took time. Others had awful side effects (methotrexate hangover anyone?).

That’s when I learned: Perfect clarity isn’t the most important thing when listening to our bodies. We will never have total clarity. Even doctors don’t have total clarity (understanding this truth will save you a lot of frustration). The two most important indicators when listening to our bodies are consistency in symptoms and patterns in our health. 

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How I Survived

I decided to listen to my body and I decided to trust what it was telling me.

You know, our bodies speak, and not only from our mouths. Our bodies talk in our sleep, in our aches and pains, in our mood.

I listened when my hands hurt at work and I couldn’t open medicine bottles for patients. I listened when halfway into a twelve-hour shift, my ankles ached and I couldn’t help but limp. I listened when I woke up in the middle of the night, both feet throbbing until I soaked them in the tub. I listened when after a glass of wine, everything got worse: fatigue, pain, anxiety. My body was responding differently to the same stimuli. With my progressing symptoms, it wasn’t hard to listen.

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What I Didn't Know Was Hurting Me

Nursing school taught me how to take care of very sick people - urgent health problems requiring urgent responses.

What nursing school did not teach me was how to take care of myself. Sure, there were a few lectures about personal health and wellness. But honestly? I was working twelve hour shifts in the ICU, writing research papers, and cramming for exams.

So I tumbled out of nursing school smarter but a whole lot less balanced than when I entered it. About two years into my first nursing job I began to show it.

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